Chapter Twenty-Three

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Offred lies on her single bed and rehearses possible actions for escape, noting that her recollections are always a reconstruction. She muses on forgiveness as a power and on the impossibility of exact truth. She is woken by Cora with a dinner tray, exchanges brief remarks about a baby and Cora’s hope for a birthday celebration, then, after finishing beef stew, she walks down the hall, remembering that Serena Joy is elsewhere.

She approaches the door to the Commander’s private study—a forbidden space for Handmaids—knocks, and is told to enter. Inside she describes the room: a desk with a Computalk, bookshelves, a fireless fireplace, a sofa, television, rug, and various domestic items. The Commander stands in a staged pose, then closes the door, greets her with “Hello,” and gestures for her to sit. He comments that the situation must feel strange, smiles politely, and then asks her to play Scrabble.

They retrieve a Scrabble set from a drawer and play two games. Offred wins the first, deliberately loses the second, noting the tactile pleasure of the wooden letters and comparing them to candy. After the games, the Commander tells her it is time to go home, thanks her for the game, and then abruptly says, “I want you to kiss me.” Offred imagines violent retaliation—removing a toilet lever and stabbing him—but ultimately leans forward and places her closed lips on his. She smells shaving lotion and mothballs; the Commander pulls back, looks sad, and says, “Not like that, as if you meant it.” The encounter ends with the Commander’s rejection of the kiss, emphasizing his control and the ambiguous power dynamics of the forbidden meeting.