Chapter 5
Usama awakens in his bedroom while his mother finishes her morning prayers. She greets the “angels” she feels surround her, offers him coffee, and, seated on the edge of his bed, begins a familiar stream of gossip. She recounts her recent move from Tulkarm, the help she received from Adil—who rented the house, arranged the move, and secured a grocer, Haj Abdullah, to look after her. She praises Haj Abdullah’s good nature despite criticisms that he sells cigarettes and cola to Israeli security forces. The conversation shifts to work; she unexpectedly suggests that Usada should help on his uncle’s farm, describing how his father transformed rocky land into a productive garden. She reminds Usama that the farm would be “hard at first” but would soon become routine, and that Adil is like a brother. She adds that Nuwar, Usama’s cousin, would inherit a share of the farm, implying a future marriage and that no government or UNRWA jobs exist. Usama internally debates his role as a committed fighter, recalling verses he wrote in his first year of exile and the death of his poetic aspirations. He reflects that his destiny is no longer a personal choice but a link in the chain of the cause. Observing his mother’s smiling face, he notes that she signs only with her thumb. He ends the dialogue by promising, “I will, Mother,” to go to the farm and look around.