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After a day of pulling tobacco on the Connecticut farm, the narrator finds Trevor alone in the dim‑lit barn, sipping neon‑yellow Gatorade. Their conversation drifts from the low‑grade crop (“wormholes”) to a raw confession: “I fucking hate my dad.” The narrator echoes the sentiment, marking the first explicit acknowledgment of Trevor’s paternal resentment. Later, on the toolshed roof, they philosophize about the sun, Cleopatra, and the invisibility of self, while sharing grapefruit halves.

The narrative jumps to Trevor’s pickup, where the two roll a joint by stuffing a cigarillo with weed and coke, lighting it, and passing it back and forth until they slump onto the barn floor. Amid the static of a Patriots radio broadcast, Trevor likens their situation to a “fourth‑down” play, using the metaphor to bind themselves to one another. The narrator’s sexual desire surfaces; he kisses Trevor’s chest, licks his ribs, and imagines a bridge built from hatred.

A fragmented memory of a grandmother (Lan) applying a boiled egg to a boy’s bruised cheek follows, tying the narrator’s “Little Dog” nickname to intergenerational care. The chapter then returns to present‑day scenes in Trevor’s yellow‑mobile home: a poster of Neil Young, a 50 Cent mixtape, scattered dime bags, and a cluttered kitchen where a grandmother‑like figure tends an injured child with a boiled egg. Trevor’s father is described as a laborer who builds red‑brick walkways, while his mother lives in Oklahoma, leaving Trevor to a solitary existence with a “white‑boy” identity contrasted against the narrator’s “yellow” heritage.

The narrator recounts multiple sexual encounters—first a “fake” act mimicking porn, then increasingly real intercourse—describing the bodily sensations, the power dynamics, and the narrator’s belief that submission can be a form of agency. Their intimacy is interwoven with drug use: Oxy, weed, and coke become part of their routine, and Trevor’s habit of loading a rifle and shooting paint cans in the backyard is detailed, echoing a story Mr Buford once told about a wounded moose.

Later, during a Thanksgiving bike ride, the boys stop at a gas station, share sandwiches, and speculate on whether they’ll remain friends into old age, all while a distant children’s chorus underscores the fleeting normalcy of their summer. The chapter concludes with a harrowing flashback to the narrator’s own childhood: a violent scene where his mother is injured, his grandmother Lan rushes him to safety, and a chaotic street fight ensues. In the final beats, the narrator, now adult, shouts “Ma” in panic, dropping a radio and rushing back into a house, underscoring his lingering trauma.

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Also by Ocean Vuong: Night Sky with Exit Wounds. In this chapter the narrator expands the memoir with a series of fragmented vignettes that reveal ongoing physical abuse, moments of artistic escape, cultural dislocation, and the monarch‑butterfly migration as a metaphor for intergenerational trauma. The narrator recounts childhood memories in Hartford with his schizophrenic grandmother Lan, the protective nickname “Little Dog,” scenes of war‑time trauma, bullying on the school bus, his mother’s (Ma) attempts to teach him English and instill “American” habits, a spiral metaphor for memory, and his emerging role as family interpreter during domestic hardships. The chapter expands the backstory of Lan, revealing her escape from an arranged marriage, the naming of herself, and her life as a mother to a daughter named Hong; it depicts a wartime checkpoint scene where Lan and Hong confront armed soldiers, includes a brutal macaque‑brain ritual by the soldiers, and ties the events to 1968, the Year of the Monkey, deepening the memoir’s intergenerational trauma motif. The narrator discovers his grandfather Paul’s wartime past, his marriage to Lan, and learns that Paul is not his biological grandfather, a truth revealed by Ma; Paul’s cancer remission and his present life in Virginia are also detailed. Narrator is violently taken in a tan‑and‑rust Toyota by Ma and Lan, fearing a killer targeting Mai; they race to a house where a white man with a shotgun confronts them, learning that Mai has lived in Florida for five years; the car withdraws as a boy with a toy pistol mimics shooting. Ma waits at a kitchen table while her son lies wounded beneath pine trees; the son, addressed as Trev, shares a secret and declares he is no longer afraid of dying, and the chapter introduces a bullet metaphor for his lingering trauma. Ma’s nail‑salon work is shown as a toxic, underpaid immigrant labor site where she cares for a prosthetic‑leg client, and the narrator later tends her back with Vicks‑coin scrapes. The narrator’s first job at fourteen is a summer harvest on a Connecticut tobacco farm (2003), meeting crew‑leader Manny, owner Mr Buford, and other undocumented workers (Nico, Rick, Rigo). He learns the farm’s rhythm, hears “Lo siento,” and later encounters Buford’s grandson Trevor, prompting a son‑to‑mother apology. The narrator’s relationship with Trevor deepens into a volatile mix of mutual hatred for paternal figures, drug‑driven escapades, and explicit sexual intimacy; Trevor’s family background—an abusive father, an absent mother living in Oklahoma, and a cluttered mobile‑home life—is revealed, and the narrator’s memories of childhood trauma and his grandmother Lan surface alongside vivid scenes of farm work, a barn radio game, and a series of violent flashbacks.