Chapter Ten

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Offred begins the chapter by silently singing an altered version of “Amazing Grace” in her head, noting that such hymns and any mention of “free” are now outlawed and dangerous. She remembers listening to an old cassette tape her mother used, recalling how music has vanished from public life; only brief humming from Rita and a low‑volume disc of Serena’s voice fill the house. She observes the oppressive heat, the unpacked summer dresses, and Aunt Lydia’s admonitions about “things” that women must avoid, linking them to appearance and morality. Aunt Lydia presses her hand over a dead mouse on the doorstep, reinforcing the grim domestic rituals. A brief exchange with Luke about the mice occurs, showing lingering personal connections.

Moira bursts into Offred’s room, dropping her denim jacket, asking for cigarettes. She rummages through Offred’s purse, finds a lighter, and offers a cigarette, then proposes an “underwhore party” and discusses selling illicit underwear, lingerie, and porn‑related merchandise, claiming she has “connections” through her mother’s friend and that the suburbs have a market for such goods. Offred reacts with cynicism and sarcasm, questioning the feasibility and audience for the venture. Their conversation reveals Moira’s continued rebellion and Offder’s weary skepticism.

Later, Offred sits on the narrow window seat, noting a faded “FAITH” cushion and the semi‑sheer curtain. She watches Nick approach the car, then the Commander emerge, both entering the vehicle. She imagines stealing the cushion to throw at the Commander and recalls a past water‑bomb prank with Moira. The Commander drives away, Nick closes the door, and the car disappears down the driveway. Offred experiences a complex emotional response: she knows she should hate the Commander, yet she feels something more ambiguous—not love, but a tangled mixture of resentment, fear, and perhaps a lingering humanity. The chapter ends with her unresolved internal conflict about the regime and its representatives.