Chapter Thirty-Two

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Rita sits at the kitchen table cutting radishes into flower shapes, barely acknowledges Offred’s entrance, and after a terse exchange about matches, she retrieves a wooden match from a cardboard box and gives it to Offred, warning her not to set fire to anything. She then offers Offred an ice cube from the bowl, an unusual gesture, and makes a brief, scornful comment about Offred’s “pillowcases” on her head. Offred gratefully accepts the match, places it in her sleeve with a hidden cigarette, and takes the ice cube.

Offred leaves the kitchen, ascends the stairs, and pauses in the hallway mirror, where she sees a red wisp of smoke and envisions the sensory experience of smoking—a rich cinnamon sigh, nicotine rush, and the potential danger it poses. She mentally maps possible locations to light the cigarette (bathroom, bedroom) and ponders the risk of being caught.

Her thoughts shift to the Commander’s behavior the previous night: he was drinking Scotch and water, playing Scrabble, turning on a short‑wave radio to listen briefly to Radio Free America, and making disparaging remarks about Cubans and universal daycare. He occasionally became “silly,” showing a childish side, and would sometimes hold Offred’s hand while seated on the floor beside her, looking up at her from a lower angle.

The Commander later engages Offred in a philosophical monologue about the crisis among men. He claims that after the wars, men have “nothing” to do, no purpose, and are dissatisfied with sex and marriage. He suggests that men have become numb, “turning off on sex, even… on marriage,” and that their inability to feel is the greatest complaint. He tells Offred that he believes intimacy is what men crave, yet he cannot receive it from her. He asks for her opinion, pressing his hands onto her shoulders, and despite her attempts to stay silent, he insists she must have something to say. He concludes with the proverb, “You can’t make an omelette without breaking eggs,” and remarks that “better never means better for everyone; it always means worse for some,” while Offred silently wishes for a storm that would darken the house and give her an excuse to stay with Rita and Cora.

Throughout the internal monologue Offred also recalls Cora, who usually lights fires in the sitting and dining rooms during cooler weather, and imagines using the match to start a fire that could destroy the house. She oscillates between the urge to smoke for personal relief and the darker fantasy of burning the home as an escape. The chapter ends with Offred standing in the hallway, hand still on the match, contemplating both the mundane act of smoking and the possibility of rebellion.