Back to Book Overview

XII

Chapter 122,689 wordsCompleted

The chapter opens with a description of the fast‑passing period from Christmas to the pre‑Lent “Užgavėnių” carnival, when the seminarians’ sole pleasure is the “pončkos” – Thursday feasts after long walks, funded by senior priests. The former senior formado now oversees the second‑year students, while first‑years still have a junior formado. The “Šviesa” literary circle, composed of Lithuanian seminarians, plans its program for the upcoming carnival evening. Varnėnas, a third‑year clerk, enthusiastically proposes to recite the controversial Lithuanian poem “Skausmo balsas” by Maironis, hoping to assert Lithuanian cultural identity amid worsening Lithuanian‑Polish quarrels in parish churches.

The night of the performance is set in a spacious recreation hall before the altar. The hall is filled with the diocese’s senior clergy, the rector, Inspector Mazurkovskis, the curial secretary, and other seminarians. Varnėnas takes the stage, large‑bodied and eager, and delivers the poem with fervent gestures and a booming voice. As he reads lines about love, hope, and death, the audience reacts with uneasy silence that turns to nervous laughter, then to outright hostility. The rector and an “official” (pralotas ofi­cialas) interrupt, demanding to know who Maironis is, eventually concluding he is a “socialist, anarchist, atheist.” The curial secretary apologizes, the rector rebukes Varnėnas for publishing the poem without permission, and the inspector sternly warns that no seminary writing may leave the institution without his knowledge.

After the performance, Varnėnas is summoned by the rector. The rector accuses him of “breaking the rules,” calls the poem a dangerous “heretical letter,” and orders Varnėnas to cease all literary activity and leave the “Šviesa” circle. Varnėnas protests, claiming ignorance of the rule, but the rector dismisses him with the phrase “pychę masz.” Varnėnas later recounts the episode to the “Šviesa” members; the group feels a “sharp Damocles sword” hanging over them. Vasaris, listening, feels a surge of mixed emotions – admiration for Varnėnas’s courage, fear of the rector’s power, and a growing sense that his own poetic aspirations are perilous.

The chapter then shifts to a broader discussion among seminarians about the Lithuanian‑Polish cultural conflict. Jonelaitis (a third‑year clerk) warns that Varnėnas’s act could lead to expulsion from the seminary; Kasaitis (another clerk) argues that the incident shows the seminarians are needed and that repression only strengthens their resolve. Their debate highlights the tension between nationalist ideals and the seminary’s hierarchical, Polish‑oriented administration.

Later, the narrative describes a separate incident at a recreation evening where Lithuanian seminarians begin singing Lithuanian songs, soon followed by Polish songs, leading to a dispute. The rector intervenes, siding with the Lithuanian singers and publicly rebuking a third‑year tenor named Marčiulis for “disrespect.” This further illustrates the volatile atmosphere and the rector’s selective enforcement of rules.

Throughout, Vasaris observes the secret circulation of Lithuanian newspapers, books, and poems (Liudviko Giros, S. Čiurlionienės‑Kymantaitės, etc.) among “Šviesa” members, noting their desire to create a cultural “corner” within the seminary walls. He reflects on his own limited Latin studies, the lack of classic world literature in the curriculum, and the difficulty of accessing broader literary works.

The chapter concludes with Vasaris contemplating his own future: the rector’s warning that priests must be “humble, obedient, and free of ambition,” the warning that Varnėnas’s literary ambition is a dangerous path, and Vasaris’s internal conflict between his burgeoning literary interests and the seminary’s strict expectations. He realizes that the “Šviesa” circle’s aspirations are fraught with risk, and that the seminary’s oppressive environment both stifles and fuels his desire for literary expression.

Running Summary
Cumulative summary through the selected chapter (not the full-book final summary).
Through chapter 12

Liudas Vasaris awakens in the seminary, learns the strict daily bell schedule, experiences his first communion in the chapel, and begins adjusting to life among fellow first‑year seminarians. The seminary’s hierarchy is detailed: the bishop’s authority is limited, the rector (Valeškevičius) oversees daily life and grants permissions, Inspector Mazurkovskis enforces Polish traditions, and the spiritual father administers confessions. First‑year seminarians perform numerous chores (cleaning, serving meals, assisting in liturgies) and must master Polish and Latin while receiving only minimal Lithuanian instruction. Political tension over language rights fuels patriotic unrest among the seminarians. Liudas, looking back years later, recalls these routines, the strict punctuality, and the mixture of spiritual practice with menial labor. Liudas wrestles with the emptiness of his liturgical routine, adopts a two‑part conscience‑examination method with counting beads, confesses emerging sins such as pride, envy and criticism of elders, experiences a winter‑time scramble for a hidden bench by a wall niche, and during the Easter break a fellow seminarian (the formarijus) points out his overly closed and secretive nature, deepening his self‑awareness. After Easter, Vasaris walks with fellow first‑year seminarians Jonas Variokas and discusses his cynical ambition to climb the church hierarchy, which triggers deeper self‑doubt about his vocation. Vasaris observes the seminary’s strict rule against close friendships and notes the scarcity of truly pious peers. He and Variokas view a provocative illustration of a nude, bound woman, prompting Vasaris to confess to the spiritual father about his indecent curiosity. The chapter also recounts the earlier mishap of acolyte Balselis trying to extinguish candles. Variokas announces his departure and leaves the seminary; Liudas meets his parents for the first time in the seminary’s parlatorium and experiences humiliating address as “kunigėli,” fuelling his awareness of reputation and the need for secrecy; a clandestine gathering in the “zirkininkas” storage room erupts with food, Latin verses and heated jokes; third‑year clerk Jonelaitis and fellow clerk Kasaitis join the scene, discussing the monotony of seminary life and urging private initiative; Liudas reinforces his habit of hiding during silentium and carefully monitoring rector and inspector movements. Liudas finishes his first year, receives stern holiday conduct instructions from the spiritual father and rector, travels home and experiences an overwhelming connection with nature, returns to his village, is welcomed by his parents, begins parish life under a local priest, reunites with Petryla, observes clergy’s drinking and a strict vicar, meets the barmaid Liucė, and reflects on his vocation amid the contrast between seminary asceticism and village realities. After the St Laurence indulgences Liudas recalls a tense encounter with the vicar of Šilučiai, deepens his infatuation with Liucė by learning her orphaned background and musical talent, meets the young, aristocratic vicar Zigmas Trikauskas who arrives with Liucė, witnesses Trikauskas’ arrogance and the clever manipulation of the local klebon Kimša, and participates in a heated village discussion about Lithuanian cultural‑political issues, all of which intensify his inner doubts and his awkward, failed attempt at intimacy with Liucė. Liudas enters his second year of seminary, moving from the cramped “labirintas” to a small shared room of four, no longer under constant supervision by a formarijus. He develops his first romantic and erotic attraction toward Liucė, wrestling with seminary teachings on celibacy. After a few weeks he is ordered by Inspector Mazurkovskis to relinquish his room and return to the labirintas; he protests, is mocked, and is forced to move back, feeling humiliation. Later he confesses a vague “excessive opposition” and receives stern admonition from the Spiritual Father, settling into resigned acceptance of the hierarchy. Liudas participates in the great Nativity of the Blessed Virgin Mary indulgence celebration; his choir talents free him from assistant duties and earn him praise; during the mass he experiences a vivid vision of an unknown woman, idealizing her as a poetic love; the celebratory atmosphere lifts his spirits and earns him admiration from fellow seminarians; Petryla informs Liudas that Liucė will visit the seminary soon, heightening his anticipation; after the festivities Liudas returns to the labirintas and falls asleep, still haunted by the vision. Liudas experiences a melancholic “quies” day, imagines an unknown woman, writes his first poem, receives his poem printed in a newspaper, and is initiated into the clandestine literary society “Šviesa,” meeting third‑year clerk Petras Varnėnas and fourth‑year clerk Matas Sereika. Liudas receives an unexpected Christmas‑time visit from the priest Kimša and Liucė; the three meet in the parlatorium where Liucė brings hand‑knitted gloves and playful banter ensues with Petryla, who jokes about Liudas’s nickname “Pavasarėlis” and warns him of possible jealousy. Liudas’s attraction to Liucė deepens, prompting a long internal debate about love, its forms, and the conflict between clerical celibacy and youthful desire, while he reflects on the seminary’s festive atmosphere and his own emotional turmoil. During the Carnival season the seminarians organize “pončkos” festivities and a “Šviesa” society meeting to plan a literary program. Varnėnas, a third‑year clerk, volunteers to recite Maironis’s poem “Skausmo balsas” at the society’s stage. His loud, confrontational performance provokes outrage from the rector, Inspector Mazurkovskis, the chaplain and other senior clergy, who interrupt, question the poem’s author, and chastise Varnėnas for breaching the rule that no seminary member may publish or distribute writings without the rector’s permission. The rector publicly rebukes Varnėnas, expels him from the “Šviesa” circle and warns him that his literary ambitions are dangerous for a priest. The incident deepens Vasaris’s anxiety about his own poetic aspirations and the clash between Lithuanian nationalist sentiment and the seminary’s Polish‑dominant authority. The chapter also records heightened Lithuanian‑Polish tensions, the continued secret reading of Lithuanian and foreign literature, and the admonition that seminary curricula omit classic world literature.