Chapter 21

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After the “sukaktuvių” celebration of Father Kimša, Vasaris’s February vacation becomes a series of restless, uneven days. He attempts to keep the usual parish routine—Saturday services, Sunday communion, morning and evening prayers, teaching cantors—but frequently abandons these duties to wander the fields, sit on Aušrakalnis, or imagine himself at Kleviškio rectory. While in these reveries he repeatedly visualizes Kimša’s painting, merging the scene with his present surroundings and feeling a surge of resolve to enjoy his “last free vacation.”

His spiritual practices deteriorate: he reads meditation points only hurriedly, skips scriptural study, and performs evening prayers perfunctorily, while most of his time is spent day‑dreaming about the details of a forthcoming farewell (išleistuvės).

Vasaris’s thoughts turn to Liucė, now older, with black eyes and a mature demeanor. He recalls her earlier childish habits and notes her recent transformation into a more thoughtful young woman. Their family background is revealed: Liucė’s uncle, who loves her, insists she marry the doctor Brazgys, a former seminarian now practicing in Moscow. The uncle repeatedly pressures her, offering to “cut” and “sell” her, while Liucė rebuffs him with sharp retorts, insisting she will choose her own path.

Vasaris feels a strong, though not fully formed, attraction to Liucė. He experiences brief flirtations—glances, teasing remarks—but remains uncertain whether his feelings constitute love. He also observes Liucė’s impatience and mood swings during the summer while waiting for Brazgys’s return, noting how clerics like Trikauskas and Petryla mock or comfort her.

Determined to capitalize on his remaining leisure, Vasaris organizes a farewell gathering for the clergy on a Sunday, inviting everyone except the absent Trikauskas. He travels to Kleviškis, where Liucė, hearing his arrival, rushes to greet him. Their dialogue is a mixture of affectionate teasing and latent tension: Liucė mentions the “kačpėdėlės” (small wooden cups) from Aušrakalnis, invites Vasaris into her room, and playfully shouts “fi!” when he hesitates. After a brief, conflicted exchange in which she both pushes him away and then lets him in, they return to the salon.

The mass begins; organ music fills the hall, clergy perform the rites, and Vasaris sits near the front, watching Liucė’s reactions. The service concludes with ordinary prayers, but Vasaris’s inner turmoil deepens as he contemplates Liucė’s impending marriage to Brazgys and the end of his unstructured vacation. He leaves the gathering with a mixture of hope, anxiety, and a lingering sense that his “dangerous acquaintance” with the world outside the seminary may soon be severed.