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After a two‑week gap, the first‑year seminarians gather on a Thursday in the second aulė for recreation. Jonas Variokas bursts in, visibly agitated, and declares that today is his last day in the seminary and he will leave tomorrow. He jokes about buying a cheap coat, and his nervous speech unsettles the others. Liukas Vasaris reacts, teasing Variokas about “escaping to freedom,” while Petryla and another friend mock the idea of Vasaris ever leaving. The group falls silent when the bell rings.

Later, a guard announces that Liudas’s parents have arrived. With the rector’s permission, Liudas is escorted to the parlatorium, the seminary’s guest‑reception room, for his first meeting with his father and mother. The encounter is painfully formal: the father kisses Liudas’s hand and immediately feels embarrassed, while the mother cries tears of joy. Both address him repeatedly as “kunigėli,” a plural, reverent form that strikes Liudas as degrading. He defends himself, but the parents’ condescending respect deepens his sense of being isolated from his family.

After the parents leave, Variokas returns to say goodbye to the first‑years, selling a cheap coat and promising to be “free.” He bids Liudas a firm handshake and departs, leaving the boys to contemplate his confidence.

The next morning, before lessons, third‑year clerk Jonelaitis, the library assistant known for his cautious politics, meets Liukas in the garden. They discuss the stultifying routine of seminary life, agreeing that the official program is monotonous but that private initiative—reading, research, and community work—remains essential. Their conversation lifts Liukas’s spirits and hints at a hidden side of seminary life.

In the afternoon, a group of clerics—including Petryla, Kasaitis (Petras Kasaitis), Balselis, and a few others—convene in a concealed storage room nicknamed “žirkininkas” (the rat room). They unpack a large pot of stew, a cake, and jars of preserves. Kasaitis jokes about the meager provisions, Petryla orders everyone to help themselves, and Balselis recites a Latin phrase “quam bonum et jucundum est, fratres, habitare in unum,” while warning that the inspector may appear. The bell rings “silencium,” the room empties, and the boys scramble to re‑hide the food and their whereabouts.

During the subsequent silentium, Liukas, recalling the earlier admonition to avoid the rector’s and inspector’s gaze, carefully watches the corridors, ready to bow or apologize if noticed. When a rector’s hand appears at the doorway, Liukas instinctively kisses the rector’s hand and apologizes, trying to preserve his fragile reputation. The rector questions his acquaintance with Variokas, to which Liukas feigns ignorance.

The chapter ends with Liukas reflecting that his experience with his parents and the secret gatherings have taught him to be constantly vigilant, to conceal any “profane” books during inspections, and to rely on the opinion of the rector and other authorities for his future in the seminary.

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Liudas Vasaris awakens in the seminary, learns the strict daily bell schedule, experiences his first communion in the chapel, and begins adjusting to life among fellow first‑year seminarians. The seminary’s hierarchy is detailed: the bishop’s authority is limited, the rector (Valeškevičius) oversees daily life and grants permissions, Inspector Mazurkovskis enforces Polish traditions, and the spiritual father administers confessions. First‑year seminarians perform numerous chores (cleaning, serving meals, assisting in liturgies) and must master Polish and Latin while receiving only minimal Lithuanian instruction. Political tension over language rights fuels patriotic unrest among the seminarians. Liudas, looking back years later, recalls these routines, the strict punctuality, and the mixture of spiritual practice with menial labor. Liudas wrestles with the emptiness of his liturgical routine, adopts a two‑part conscience‑examination method with counting beads, confesses emerging sins such as pride, envy and criticism of elders, experiences a winter‑time scramble for a hidden bench by a wall niche, and during the Easter break a fellow seminarian (the formarijus) points out his overly closed and secretive nature, deepening his self‑awareness. After Easter, Vasaris walks with fellow first‑year seminarians Jonas Variokas and discusses his cynical ambition to climb the church hierarchy, which triggers deeper self‑doubt about his vocation. Vasaris observes the seminary’s strict rule against close friendships and notes the scarcity of truly pious peers. He and Variokas view a provocative illustration of a nude, bound woman, prompting Vasaris to confess to the spiritual father about his indecent curiosity. The chapter also recounts the earlier mishap of acolyte Balselis trying to extinguish candles. Variokas announces his departure and leaves the seminary; Liudas meets his parents for the first time in the seminary’s parlatorium and experiences humiliating address as “kunigėli,” fuelling his awareness of reputation and the need for secrecy; a clandestine gathering in the “zirkininkas” storage room erupts with food, Latin verses and heated jokes; third‑year clerk Jonelaitis and fellow clerk Kasaitis join the scene, discussing the monotony of seminary life and urging private initiative; Liudas reinforces his habit of hiding during silentium and carefully monitoring rector and inspector movements.