Chapter 56

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On a Tuesday, Liudas Vasaris departs for his hometown, planning to stay until Friday or Saturday to avoid Sunday parish duties. At the railway station his father, the elderly Vasaris, meets him, greets him with exaggerated familiarity, and immediately launches into a long, emotional recounting of the war. The father describes German occupation, Russian reprisals, the brutal actions of the “kreishauptman” and “amtforšter,” the starvation and pillaging of the village, and the death of several relatives: Šilainių dėdė who died in Russia, a “Klevišky” priest whose death was tied to the war, and the demise of a doctor who perished in the revolution. He laments the suffering endured by the villagers, the loss of “Šilainių” uncle’s soul, and the moral corruption he sees in both occupiers and locals.

Liudas listens while interjecting occasional comments, noting the “plienčikų” (German soldiers) and the later arrival of “plėšikai” (bandits). The father also mentions other family members: a brother who never returned from war, a distant aunt who married a doctor, the lingering memory of a priest named Kimša, and the tragic fate of the “Brazgys” doctor who died in the revolution. The conversation drifts to personal matters: Liudas’s former romantic involvement with Liucė, the daughter of a local family. He recalls how Liucė had once been his first love, how she later married Dr. Brazgys, and how she now appears in his memories as a distant, idealized figure whose marriage and subsequent death after the war still haunt him.

After the emotional dialogue, the two ride their horses out of town. The father, while driving, continues to praise “the glory of God” for the modest safety of their home. He expresses a wish that Liudas might become the village’s parish priest, reminiscing about a promised “klebon” role that never materialized for him. Liudas, feeling increasingly alienated from both his father’s expectations and his own past, rejects the suggestion, stating that he will not return to the parish as a priest.

The journey continues to the hill Aušrakalnis, where Liudas observes the desolate landscape, the ruined farms, and the solitary stone of Aušrakalnis that still stands. He notes the contrast between the hill’s calm and the village’s recent turmoil. Upon arriving at his family home, his mother greets him with tears, and the household is filled with a mixture of relief and sorrow. Liudas feels a profound sense of being a stranger in his own home, reinforced by his father’s distant stare and his own internal conflict over love, vocation, and identity. The chapter ends with Liudas sitting alone, reflecting on the broken ties between his youthful aspirations, his family’s wartime trauma, and his unresolved feelings for Liucė, marking a deepening personal crisis.