Chapter 63

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Liucija Glaudžiuvienė, after years of a strained marriage, finally acknowledges that her relationship with her husband, Povilas Glaudžius, has become irreparable. She reflects on Glaudžius’s paradoxical nature—generous enough to provide a lavish lifestyle, ensuring she appeared aristocratic and was admired by ministers, yet profoundly egoistic, caring only for the prospect of a son and withdrawing affection once that hope faded. The narrative details his affluent household: monthly allowances, social gatherings where prominent men—major, director, party leader—flock to their home, lavish buffets, and Chinese, Japanese, or Indian styled rooms where Glaudžius remains seated while Liucija dances with companions. Local “Kauno poniutės” resent Glaudžius’s behavior and spread rumors, but he remains oblivious to Liucija’s social circles.

Having spent a youthful, isolated provincial life, Liucija now lives in the temporary capital’s whirlwind, gradually embracing a freer, more playful existence. She consciously adjusts her style to suit a woman in her thirties, discarding fashions suitable for a twenty‑year‑old, thereby doubling her charm and evoking warm feelings in those around her.

The chapter shifts to Liucija’s first meeting with Liudas Vasaris at the theatre. Though her heart is initially free of deep attachment, the encounter thrills her, and she hides her delight while yearning for his approval. She had previously heard of Vasaris through literature evenings, a drama about a monk‑priest marriage, and speculative rumors about his potential career paths (apostate, jurist, professor, writer). Unexpectedly seeing him beside her at the theatre, she is both surprised and elated, observing his mature, confident demeanor.

Liucija’s internal monologue reveals lingering love: she believes her emotional affairs with Vasaris remain unfinished, while Vasaris admits he only feels a fleeting infatuation and has no intention of deepening the bond. He reflects on a hypothetical life had he left the seminary and married her, imagining a peaceful, prosperous existence, yet concludes that his actual path—remaining a priest—prevents such a relationship. Vasaris also contemplates alternative futures, acknowledging that war would have ultimately destroyed any personal achievements. The chapter ends with Liucija’s unresolved longing and Vasaris’s detached resolve, underscoring the emotional chasm between them.