Chapter 69

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Liudas Vasaris, feeling exhausted by his recent parish duties and the emotional pressure from his mother, decides to spend the summer in the quiet seaside town of Nida. He parts from Kaunas, leaves his belongings (including a sewn‑in sutana) behind, and settles in a modest fisher’s hut near the beach. The chapter opens with Liudas describing his desire for a long meditation, a deep inward plunge, and a decisive step away from his clerical routine.

During the first days he visits his aging parents, attends a family Mass, and experiences his mother’s desperate prayers that he will not abandon the priesthood. After a week of routine parish work—celebrating Mass, hearing confessions, and assisting with baptisms—Liudas feels a growing fatigue and a sense that his priestly duties are “baisios nuodėmės, šventvagystės.” He decides to leave for Nida to avoid the “voratinklio” of his family and clerical expectations.

In Nida, Liudas spends his time walking along the shore, through pine groves and the dunes, observing birds, ants, and the changing light. He notes the heat, the sea breeze, and the silence of the landscape, which gradually eases the heaviness in his chest. He resumes work on his drama, re‑editing scenes, sharpening characters, and strengthening the conflict. He writes new poems inspired by the sea and the sky.

One afternoon, after a period of solitary contemplation on the beach, Liudas climbs a large sand dune. He describes the ascent in vivid detail: slipping on wet sand, the cold wind, the sudden view of the moon‑lit sea and distant Nida lighthouse. At the summit he encounters a woman he instantly recognizes as Auksė, an American he had known before. Their conversation is charged with surprise and nostalgia. Auksė greets him with a playful “Ar ne romantiškas susitikimas?!” and admits she had recognized him because the moon illuminated his face. They reminisce briefly, acknowledge their previous separation, and agree to meet again the next day. The encounter reawakens Liudas’s emotional turmoil, mixing hope, desire, and guilt.

After descending, Liudas returns to his hut, feeling both unsettled and invigorated. He resolves to finish his drama and, if it is accepted by the State Theatre, to use the success as a “step toward exiting the priesthood.” He writes a final version of the script, adds a few new verses, and packs his belongings, including the sutana he had neglected for years.

The chapter ends with Liudas boarding a train back to Kaunas. He looks out at the receding sea, feels a lingering quiet in his chest, and contemplates the impending decisions: whether to continue his clerical path or to pursue a literary career, now buoyed by Auksė’s unexpected appearance and the promise of his drama’s potential theatrical presentation.