Chapter 13

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After his home‑vacation, Liudas Vasaris returns to his parents’ house and tries to keep the seminary schedule: morning prayers, meditation, evening prayers, reading, Mass and Communion. During this period Liucė, the priest’s adopted daughter, greets him aggressively at the parish door, calling him “tamsta” and humiliating him, which deepens his sense of embarrassment.

A few weeks later the rector orders Vasaris to vacate his second‑year dormitory and return to the “labirintas” (the labyrinthine attic). Vasaris protests to the senior clerk and to Inspector Mazurkovskis, is rebuffed, and is forcibly moved. He later confesses his dissent to his spiritual father, reflecting on his resignation and growing inner turmoil.

At the Nekalto atindimas (a mourning service) Vasaris is struck by a sudden vision of a woman dressed in white standing at the altar. The apparition gives him a fleeting hope and lifts his usual melancholy. After the service classmates remark on his brighter mood, he receives jokes about his newfound liveliness and is praised for his enthusiastic singing. Petryla, noticing Vasaris’s change, tells him that Liucė will soon be transferred to the seminary, prompting Vasaris to resolve to sit in the front row of the next mass to catch another glimpse of the mysterious woman.

Inspired by the vision, Vasaris writes his first poem, which he manages to have printed and distributed among his peers. He is subsequently inducted into the clandestine clerical society “Šviesa,” where he meets the senior seminarians Petras Varnėnas and Matas Sereika. Their mentorship pushes him deeper into philosophy and logic studies, widening his intellectual horizon.

During the Christmas holidays a visiting priest, Kimša, arrives with his relative Liuce. Vasaris encounters Liucė again at the seminary’s lay‑guest gathering; he receives a pair of handmade gloves from her and later gives her a matching pair. Their interaction draws teasing from Petryla and provokes a brief confrontation with Kimša over liturgical duties, leaving Vasaris unsettled. The episode intensifies his conflict between his idealized memories of Liucė, the vision of the white‑clad woman, and his priestly vocation.

Overall, the chapter traces Vasaris’s forced relocation, his mystical vision, creative breakthrough, entry into a secret brotherhood, and a tangled web of personal relationships that amplify his spiritual and emotional crisis.