Chapter 26

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The chapter opens with the solemn subdeacon ordination ceremony for Liudas Vasaris. The bishop, assisted by the diocesan cantor and the senior deacon, places the traditional white dalmatic and the cincture over Vasaris’s shoulders, and anoints his hands with holy oil while reciting the rites of ordination. As the choir chants the liturgical formula, Vasaris feels a sudden, vivid vision: a luminous woman in white appears at the altar, her face serene yet inscrutable, seemingly beckoning him. The sight profoundly unsettles him, reviving the yearning that has haunted him since his earlier encounter with the similar apparition.

After the Mass, Vasaris retreats to a quiet side chapel where he reflects on the vision, his recent encounter with Liucė at her wedding, and the lingering emotional charge that still binds him to her. He silently debates three possible courses: (1) to abandon his clerical career and devote himself wholly to poetry, allowing his artistic impulse to become his primary vocation; (2) to embrace the priestly path fully, suppressing personal desire and focusing on his sacramental duties; or (3) to seek a synthesis, integrating his poetic sensibility within his priestly life, hoping the mysterious woman’s appearance might be a sign that such a union is possible.

Vasaris confides his turmoil to a trusted senior seminarian, Petras Varnėnas, who offers cautious counsel but emphasizes the weight of the priestly commitment. The chapter ends with Vasaris standing alone before the altar, the image of the white‑clothed woman still vivid in his mind, as he resolves to choose one of the three paths, aware that each will fundamentally reshape his identity.