Chapter 75

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After the funeral of her son, Ponia Liucija Glaudžiuvienė falls into a severe, almost catatonic apathy. She isolates herself in her room, refuses to visit the grave, ignores her husband, and silences servants. The household becomes oppressive; even a stray sound feels harsh, and a stranger entering the Glaudžiai apartment feels uncomfortable.

Vasaris, about to leave Kaunas for a vacation, decides to visit Liucija despite Adelė’s warning not to mention Vytukas. He knocks, opens the door, and finds Liucija seated by the window, head rested on a support, staring into the distance. She glances up briefly, looks displeased, but does not rise or greet him. Vasaris apologizes for the intrusion, says he’s leaving Kaunas for a while, and wishes to say goodbye. Liucija, in a tired voice, invites him to sit. Vasaris asks whether she plans to leave the town in the summer; she answers “no.” He suggests moving elsewhere might be good, but she remains silent.

Attempting to provoke a response, Vasaris declares he must tell Kimša that Liucija is ill and that she is “killing herself.” The words stun Liucija; she fixes a sharp, scrutinizing gaze on him, asking whether her uncle has said anything about her. Vasaris replies vaguely, offering to help if needed. Liucija’s interest wanes; she looks away, appears not to hear his final sentence. Vasaris tries again, reminding her that she was once full of strength and urging her to create a brighter future. She replies coldly, thanking him for his concern but stating she needs nothing. Sensing her anxiety from the trembling of her fingers, Vasaris stops speaking, bows, and leaves.

Back at his dormitory, Vasaris recounts the visit to Auksė. Auksė is shocked and fears Liucija may commit suicide. Vasaris confirms his worries, noting Liucija’s refusal to visit her son’s grave and her complete withdrawal. They discuss Kimša’s earlier concern for Liucija and the possibility that she has lost her only remaining support after her son’s death.

Vasaris then travels to Palanga, stops at his father’s house for a few days, and reflects on his parents’ expected reaction to his return. He proceeds to Kleviškis to visit the venerable priest Kimša. Kimša asks about Liucija; Vasaris describes her apathetic state and his belief that she may be suicidal. Kimša expresses concern, asks about his own health, and the conversation shifts to the broader worries of the clergy. Vasaris also meets an old acquaintance, shares his recent experiences, and receives a brief, sympathetic response from Kimša.

After these visits, Vasaris returns to Kaunas and again seeks an audience with Liucija. She appears dressed entirely in black, without jewelry, with unstyled hair and a gaunt, solemn face. She offers him a handshake, sits opposite him, and remains largely silent. Vasaris, with respect, informs her that he has been to his father’s home and to Kimša, who sends his greetings. Liucija thanks him but continues to stare out the window, replying minimally: “Nothing… I am beginning to …”. When Vasaris probes her feelings, she says that her lips still utter pain and that his wish for her happiness is, in her view, a “very bad thing.” She hints that if the instinct of life returns she would still choose to end her own life. Vasaris departs, realizing that Liucija’s despair remains intact and she rejects any attempt at assistance, leaving him with a deepening sense of helplessness and concern for her fate.