Chapter 20

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Liudas Vasaris, now a fifth‑year cleric, receives an invitation from the Kleviškio klebon (Klebonas Kimša) to attend his 50th birthday celebration and 25th priestly anniversary on the holy feast of St. On. He decides to travel to Vilnius despite the inconvenience, prepares carefully, and puts on a newly earned “apikaklė” (a high‑rank clerical head‑cover) that only senior seminarians are permitted to wear.

Upon arriving at the Kleviškio parish, Vasaris is greeted by the senior clerk Petryla, who jokingly calls him “pilstytojas” and comments on the lavish decorations of the jubilee hall. Petryla informs Vasaris that Kimša has just been awarded the honorific title of “kanauninkas”. Kimša, while congratulating Vasaris, sternly warns him not to follow his own example, implying that becoming a “kanauninkas” can lead to a life without true ecclesiastical honor.

During the mass Vasaris kneels at the altar, his thoughts continually return to Liucė. He spots her in the crowd, now older, more composed, and deliberately avoids eye contact. After the service the congregation moves to the salona for a banquet. Liucė, who had previously been a parish girl, is now seated at a table with strangers. Vasaris approaches her, greets her warmly, and she responds with a firm handshake and a bright smile. Their dialogue covers mundane topics—drinking habits, daily life—but quickly turns to deeper subjects: Vasaris’s lingering affection, his recent self‑doubt as a poet, and Liucė’s own feelings about love and marriage. She hints that any union between them would likely be unhappy and suggests that love is a poor subject for poetry.

The banquet becomes increasingly boisterous. Petryla teases Liucė about her drunkenness, and Vasaris, feeling both compelled and embarrassed, drinks heavily. He repeatedly raises his glass to hers, sharing toasts of “Ilgiausių metų”. As the wine flows, Vasaris experiences a mixture of elation and melancholy, noticing Liucė’s face brighten yet also sensing a lingering sadness in her eyes.

Throughout the evening Vasaris oscillates between attempting to cheer Liucė, feeling guilt for her apparent melancholy, and confronting his own internal conflict: the desire to pursue a romantic relationship, the pressure to fulfill his clerical duties, and the fear that his poetic impulses are incompatible with the expectations of his order. He reflects on his years in the seminary, the poems he has written, and the admonition from the “kanauninkas” to avoid the path of personal ambition.

In the final moments of the gathering, Liucė questions Vasaris about his “tamsta” (seminary self‑examination), and he admits he is still searching for his true vocation. She offers a cryptic reassurance, calling him “Pavasarėli” and suggesting that they each must follow their own path. Vasaris leaves the salona feeling both emotionally drained and oddly hopeful, recognizing that his affection for Liucė and his poetic aspirations will continue to clash with, yet also shape, his future as a priest.